Abstinence

i've decided to give alcohol a rest atleast for 2 weeks until izzy's bucks night. i'm "fasting" rather. the whole denying of self, to sacrifice something which is truly loved and gratifyingly pleasurable for the one thing that really matters - "the big picture".

2 weeks may seem a short period of time, but for someone who practically live on the buzzing effect, baby steps is a huge measure. an alcoholic won't say he is, so i'm not.

i need a huge gulp of vodka right now.

this is not a fun factor to see how long i can survive the abstinence but a practice of a belief. i had to have this written as a solemn promise to myself.

p.s. this starts at 6 sunday morning cause i'm binge drinking tonight.